I love to read. It’s one of my favorite hobbies. I love to share books with others and will do so from time to time on this blog. For the last six years every Wednesday I have volunteered at my kids school library. I didn’t do it because I wanted to be close to my kids. In fact, I’ve always taken a shift when I knew they wouldn’t be around because I knew they would just act up if they saw me. I volunteer because I’m a frustrated librarian or English teacher. I love when a child finds a book that just speaks to them, when a struggling reader finally “gets it” and when a child asks me for a recommendation. Watching those moments unfold fills me with indescribable joy. Had I known this a million years ago when I was in college, I probably would have chosen a different major. But, I digress. [Whispers – That happens a lot.]
I recently read two books that sort of served as an inspiration or catalyst for this blog. They are The Gift of an Ordinary Day by Katrina Kenison and What I Know for Sure by Oprah Winfrey. Both of these books deal with coming to realizations, being your best self, following your own path and for me, a woman over 40, having a midlife crisis. These books are filled with amazing insight and tiny moments of clarity or as Oprah calls them “Ah ha moments”. Some of the greatest lessons for me were centered around not waiting on the perfect opportunity and asking oneself if there was nothing to fear from following your dreams would you still do it. Everyone stop what you are doing and let that last one sink in. Here, I’ll just type it again for emphasis. If you weren’t afraid of anything (specifically failure) would you do it? Can you imagine? That was huge for me.
I recently decided I was tired of not having a paying job and I wanted to re-enter the workforce. But, here’s the deal, for my family situation, I wasn’t so sure I could pull off a traditional, outside the home 9 to 5 gig and who would want me. I have been out of the workforce for years. I couldn’t go back to what I used to do before kids. My hours were insane. I didn’t want to work retail, at least not yet, so I looked into some work from home opportunities. Most of these aren’t working out for various reasons which I won’t go into at this time. I was and continue to be REALLY frustrated. Then I had a hair brained idea. I could blog or vlog or something social media. The idea was and still is a jumble but it was there just percolating in my brain along with the other 10,000 ideas I get everyday. A blog sort of makes sense. I have always loved to write. I enjoyed writing papers in school. For many years I made my living writing press releases and doing marketing, PR and fund raising for various non profit organizations. Then life happened and the most I wrote was a grocery list or a Facebook post. Because of my lack of practice, my grammar is atrocious. Readers please forgive me; I’m working on it. I broke out my Harbrace the other day. My 11th grade English teacher would bleed all over my posts – yeah I’m looking at you Mr. Rummage. Believe me grammar is not like riding a bicycle. One really does forget where to put that comma, semicolon and parentheses.
Anyway… My friends have been encouraging me for years to write a book or a blog or have a public access show or basically anything that would require me to open mouth or put pen to paper. They say I’m funny (I think I’m weird). They say I have a lot to say (I do). They say I have interesting perspectives (that’s debatable). They say I don’t give myself enough credit (do any of us?). So yeah, this is me following a dream. Well, more like a hairbrained Lucy and Ethel scheme, but I doing something. I’m writing. I’m being heard. If for some reason this gets seen by some lovely person who wants to give me a paying gig for voicing my opinions then fantastic let’s talk. I may add a vlog at some point but to be honest I am NEVER camera worthy. I habitually look homeless. Who knows, maybe I will build a Patreon account. For those of you who have never heard of Patreon it’s a funny little beast. Basically, Patreon is a crowd funding site for bloggers, vloggers and artist types. You give them money and you become their patron. It’s like tipping your server or commissioning art or putting a dollar in a stripper’s thong. Same same but different. I could be internet famous. Or, I could just be screaming drivel from the rooftops to no one in particular. Either way, I’m taking a leap and time will tell if I will soar or crash.