Y’all, I should have known better. I could quite literally stop right there and end this post and this blog. I should have known better needs to be etched on my tombstone because that pretty much just sums me up. But, I digress. Y’all know I just love a good podcast or audiobook. I typically lean towards true crime or politics for podcasts and just straight fiction for books. I rarely do autobiographical, nonfiction or self-help. In fact, I hate self-help. To me, and this is just me personally, those books either tell me to do something I’m already doing or they make a suggestion that is nearly next to impossible, which is infuriating and makes me want to throw the book across the room. But, I kept hearing about two different self-help goddesses that literally every woman I know is reading. They are both bloggers and have their own podcasts. I’ve read short articles by both women and they were pretty funny so when one of their books became available at my library I snapped it up thinking this time my foray into self-help would be different. I should have known better.
Y’all, I couldn’t even make it past the introduction. The author kept droning on and on about having a purpose and a path. And, to add insult to injury, one of my favorite podcasts, which happens to be run by an aging rock and roll star, basically said the exact same thing about two weeks prior to me attempting to read this book. And, that rock n roll star is usually never preachy. Now, some of you are probably thinking, “Girl, that’s a sign. Get your head in the game.” Nah, I’m not buying it. Maybe, I should have a purpose and a plan but you know what – for one of the first times in my life I don’t really have a plan or a purpose. I am totally tripping through life just doing the best I can. And, maybe that is my plan.
Just to make sure I hadn’t completely lost my marbles, I checked my bucket list. Yes, I have one. It’s stored on the very computer where I’m typing this blog. I was able to check off a few things like take my kids to D.C and go to Disneyland. I took off a few things like go on a massive family reunion cruise and take a pole dancing class. What the hell I was thinking with those two? You know what, it’s still a solid list and I’m slowly ticking those items off. So, maybe, that is my path and direction. If that is truly the case then my path is travel, travel and more travel – which I gotta say is one of my absolute favorite things to do. I don’t really care about a career anymore. I have a job and it’s good enough. Would I like a different one; a dream job perhaps? Sure, I would but if that never happens I’m not going to cry about it. I do think wistfully about the fact that had I had more information when I was younger I probably would have had a different career and thus been on a different path but that path is not conducive to having a family. So, yeah, I don’t really have any long term goals except don’t die young and see the world and a Disney park every chance I get. It seems really basic but it’s what I really want so maybe that is my path. And, I didn’t need a damn book or podcast to tell me that. They simply can’t help me unless they are gonna send me some money.
P.S. One of my bucket list items is to be a published author/blogger. I guess I made that one happen. I appreciate every subscriber and reader.
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